2009

may sound cliche' but where did 2009 go? i remember exactly what all went on the last week of 2008 and the events that happened the first two months of 09 and now it's 2010.


in my last post - i wrote about going to UAB for the first time and how all that felt...since that last post - justin and i experienced our first Christmas as "mommy and daddy" - except for it wasn't how we quite had planned.

every year on Christmas eve - we go to my mamaw and papa maddox's house with my mom and her four brothers and their families and all the new spouses - all in all about 40 people. driving to the party justin and i were a little down and out - because we had planned on dressing maddie up in a sweet little dress and her being the NEW addition to our family party - but she wasn't with us.

i couldn't hold back the tears - as soon as i arrived i started crying - then every time someone asked me "how are you?" i cried some more. it was just too much for me to handle. luckily, the crying subsided and the party went fairly quickly - and we got to leave.

when we left we drove to athens to spend the night at lacy and jeb's with lori and brannon and all 4 girls! we were able to assist being santa this year for our nieces, but it wasn't quite the same.

all in all, we had a rather good Christmas considering the circumstances -

maddie - mommy and daddy missed you more than words could say. we know you've been celebrating since the day you arrived in heaven. i'm sure that everyday is Christmas there. one day the three of us will be together again - but until then know that we think of you daily and we carry you with us in our hearts! sending all our love to you in heaven! - mommy