sorry - if anyone is reading (other than mom), that i haven't posted anything in what seems to be forever....this summer was very eventful/busy in the hodge household.
for starter's i was interviewing for a new job all summer (which luckily God blessed me with a good one after just a few interviews!), and i was completing my master's degree in special education - taking 4 online classes - NO FUN, and we were planning for the 2nd annual baby steps memorial run, and preparing for maddie's little brother's arrival....more updates to come soon, i promise!
just to start - it's been 1 year, 6 months, and 1 week since my precious maddox elise entered into heaven - perfect and whole and since that time she's been sitting next to the Father's side - praising Him and receiving love directly from her creator - HOW AMAZING....
i miss her - plain and simple. some days are worse than others, but today - in particular, she is heavy on my heart - and i know that she's happy and content, but her mom misses her. i'm so grateful to God for allowing me to see that precious angel - but i'm even more grateful to Him that he chose to heal her so quickly - she never had to suffer, cry, or feel any ounce of pain and for that, Jesus, i am extremely grateful...
maddie - as we prepare for your little brother - we take time often to think about you and who you would've been - we've gone through your things - really things we keep more for our sake than yours, but daddy and i hurt knowing that you won't be able to welcome hudson home with us. we know you are perfectly happy in heaven and we're thankful for that. sweet angel, just know that mommy and daddy love you so much and we are looking forward to the day when our family can be together - sitting at the feet of Jesus...
dear Lord - today is an emotional day for me. it's a day where i think about maddie more than normal and my heart is heavy because of her absence. Father - i am so thankful for the many friendships you have sent my way since maddie's death and i'm so thankful for the impact you allowed MY daughter to have on so many people and i thank you for the impact she had on my life. Jesus, thank you for loving on her and making her whole - as her earthly mom - i am eternally grateful you healed her. give me peace, sweet Father. hold me in your arms and help us welcome this new miracle into our lives with love like yours...
Thursday, August 26, 2010
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I was thinking about you just the other day. I was wondering about Hudson (although at the time, I didn't know his name). I know you must be going through so many different emotions, but I'm so happy for you and Justin and your soon-to-be new arrival.
Love,
Jill
Wow! You really brought tears to my eyes reading this. I don't usually comment on blogs but this is just too difficult to pass up. I hope God blesses you with a perfectly healthy son and that He always watches over your family. I pray that Maddox is having a great time in Heaven playing with all the other angels!!!
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